everyone has some one to love but me......(the 5th wheel)

          ..... did we jinx it? wasn't it just last week that everything was fine? suddenly chaos, i'm so lost. i don't know what's wrong with me, it never use to matter to me if i was tagging along, i always felt welcome, but iono lately its been distant. i sucks beeing the 5th wheel, the odd one out. i know you guys say it ok, but its not, it's lonely. hahaha how pathetic.... 

i wish i could go back  in time...... maybe things would be right, things would be perfect. i want him..... i have no idea why. for some reason everything i use to hate, he makes me love, things that use to annoy me, make me laugh, it's never been like this... how do you get over it? he makes me cry, but i can't hate him. maybe i just need some one else to hold, but who? how? lost. confused. i want my life back.....the good one......

"you hurt the ones you love and you love the ones that hurt you" - yunice's profile

sooooo true........

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

wow the year has gone by so quickly.... a lot has happened in this past year, a lot of tears but a ton of laughter. *sigh*

MERRY CHRISTMAS and Happy Holidays!!!!

there has been a lot of good and bad this year.... but we made it through and i guess its true that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, so hopefully thing will go smoother in the coming year. but when things are down don't give up the faith and just believe things will get better. I'd like to thanks all my friends that reminded me to stay strong at my weakest moments. i couldn't have made it without you guys I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!  

"you never know what you have til its gone....." I never realized the significance of this saying, but it is very true. I should have been there more, been more understanding, patient, and i'm so sorry i wasn't. i would give anything to go back to how it use to be. i miss him so much.......